My Joys and Struggles

Friday, September 9, 2011


I am still doing my blog challenge but I am going to be taking a few days off. But I will be back to start up where I left off.


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Day Twelve Blog Challenge

Something that you miss. Why?

I miss having friends and certain family members around. I miss being around/closer to many family members. I have tried to really make friends but nothing ever seems to stick. Its hard being 23, married, and a mother. My responsibilities are to my family first, so yeah. I also dont really like to 'go out' too much. I would be much happier just having friends over for food, drinks, and games/movies/something.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Day Eleven Blog Challenge

Favorite Book.

Love this book. It is a fiction. It has many ups and downs and just a great story line. What I liked about this book was it took off from the very first page. I love when a book can get you right away, so you aren't having to read a chapter or two just ot get into it.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Day Ten Blog Challenge

Highs and Lows of the last year.

A year ago my daughter was just about 3 months old. Shortly after in October I lost my job, it was the perfect job because I was able to keep my daughter with me at all times. My husband changed jobs, then lost the new one, and then got another through a temp agency but of course it was not quite paying enough so now we live with my parents. Its not ideal but those are my lows really..

My highs are mostly the time spent with family and watching my daughter grow into such a beautiful little girl. I am very blessed with the family I have. I love you so much Hubs and Kaitlynn!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Just wanted to add...

In the company my husband and I run, we have started a foods blog. It is up and running and we are working hard to have it filled to the brim with recipes and articles relating to food. Just thought maybe you all might like to check it out.

Any suggestions of things to add to it or recipes you would like to submit for review would be great... if your recipe is picked we would give you credit in the form of your name or website or similar.

submit recipes and suggestions to : rebecca.lea2008 (at) gmail (dot) com

Day Nine Blog Challenge

A photo of something that means the most to you.

My daughter and My husband.

Day Eight Blog Challenge

Favorite Childhood Toys.

The only two I really remember are my Lite Brite and my Barbies.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Day Seven Blog Challenge

What is your zodiac sign and do you think it fits you?

I am a crab. Cancer is my sign.

I definitely think it fits me, pretty much to a 'T'. Its crazy because I have never really believed in astrology but do love learning about it and seeing that maybe I am who my sign says I am.

This website ( here had a great explanation.

Weirdly enough, Gemini, fits my daughter great too.

My husband is a Cancer, and to think that it fits him too, is weird since him and I are pretty much each other's opposite.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Day Six Blog Challenge

Favorite comfort foods.

Ice Cream. Especially Cold Stone.
Cookies. Peanut Butter or White Chocolate Chip Cookies. Homemade.

Shepherds Pie.

Pumpkin Bars.

Do you kind of see my pattern.? My comfort foods are sweets. :)

Day Five Blog Challenge (a day late.. shame on me)

Views on Religion.

I, myself, am christian. I do not claim, at laest try to since I am not a practicing christian, any denomination. I was baptised twice. As a baby I was baptised Catholic and at 4 years old I was baptised Lutheran.

I don't really have a big view on religion. I don't care who you worship, if its one or many. I don't care how you pray or what your rituals are. As long as you are happy and are a good person with good morals that is all that matters. I do however have annoyances with religions, as least with those that I have come into contact with. Here is St. Paul, MN we have missionaries who ride around on their bikes and try to talk to you and give you a bible- they don't however leave you alone when you ask them to. I have had Jehovah's Witnesses knock on my door and I end up having to just shut the door because they do not seem to understand when I am NOT interested. And Catholic, especially orthodox, is too much for me. They just seem to dictate too much for my liking.

Please, do not take any of this the wrong way. I am not trying to generalize, I know not everyone/church practice the same way. My views are solely on those that I have come in contact with. Regardless of my annoyances, I am glad that people have something/one to believe and that they are passionate about it. I think its good for people to have something/one to believe in, whatever that may be.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Day Four Blog Challenge

Top 5 Pet Peeves.

1. People who cannot follow through with what they say they will.

2. People who cannot tell time. It drives me bonkers when people cannot show up on time or know they are going to be late but don't call or text to let you know.

3. People who cannot control they rambunctious, bratty children in public.

4. Bad Drivers!!!

5. Liars. When I ask someone a question I expect an honest answer, even if that is 'I would rather not talk about it/that.'

So these are my pet peeves. I would say the second one I listed is probably my number ONE pet peeve!

Monday, August 29, 2011

Day Three Blog Challenge

Where would you like to be in 10 years?

In 10 years, I will be 33, my husband will be 34, and our daughter will be 11. I hope that we are in our own home, no more renting! I hope to be able to have my husband working from home on our business. I hoep for our business to be very successful. I hope that my daughter is as happy as she is now. I just hope that my family is happy, healthy, and looking forward to each new day ahead of us.

Right now, we have so much going on in life that its really hard to dream about 10 years from now. I want so many things from life that I can't wrap my head around it when it currently feels like its under water.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Day Two Blog Challenge

15 interesting facts about yourself.

1. I married my one and only 5 days after I turned 20 years old.
2. I spend way too much time online, facebook, cafemom, blogger.
3. I don't necessarily like knowing the difference between want and need.
4. I still struggle with wanting to eat my feelings and be knee deep in ice cream.
5. I absolutely love being at home with our daughter and taking of everything here.
6. I feel like I was meant to be married and support my husband and child(ren) to the fullest, even if that means I get left in the dust.
7. I really hate vegetables. I could never be a vegetarian.
8. If I could I would spend all my time buying new clothes and toys for our daughter.
9. I love to write poetry, even though I only sporadically do it these days.
10. I have lists of everything, to do , wants, things to get, groceries, birthdays, etc, etc. I would probably lose my mind without them.
11. I turned 22 about 3 weeks after our daughter was born.
12. I usually say mine or me or my instead of ours or us or we. I mean us/we/ours though. :)
13. I can't stand being dirty or sweaty. If my husband is sweaty or dirty I won't hug him and rarely will I kiss him. I swear I am not a germophobe or anything like that.
14. I like modern style furniture. Straight lines please!
15. I love country music. :)

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Day One Blog Challenge

Current Relationship or if single, discuss being single.

I am currently married to a wonderful man named Bobby. We married 7.14.2008 on our 15 month anniversary. I love being married to him, he makes my life so much better. He may not understand why I tend to be so emotional or why I end up taking everything so personally but he loves me and just deals with the crazy emotions I send out. As I say, he knew what he was getting into before him married me. We started dating April 2007 and by July I was moving in. He proposed on February 1st, 2008. He was so fricken sweet. He was pretty nervous though, he had his speech saved as a draft of a text message just in case he got tongue tied.

Here is the speech he gave, I love it so I wanted to share it.

"From the beginning there was something about you that lead me to you, and even though it took me awhile to make us official, I was yours from the first time we met. Your intelligence is what made me reach out to you, your beauty is what made me want you more when we met. Your determination is what made us a couple. Your heart is what made me yours. Your my everything, my first thought when I wake up, my worry when im not there, my love when your near and my hope when we're apart from one another. Your the one I want to be with forever. Even though we're different, we always find a way to get through everything. And now, I can not see my life without you. You make me smile constantly, feel like i've never felt before."

I am so blessed to have him in my life. He is my everything and I don't know where I would be without him. I am blessed that he chose me to spend the rest of his life with and make a family with me.

I love you, Baby!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

What am I supposed to do?

What am I supposed to do when I need time to be alone but I don't have anywhere to go? I mean seriously, I dont have any friends to talk to, no one else that I care to know the whole story, and no space that can be closed off so that I can be alone. I am overly emotional, because I HATE living with my parents- frankly they suck to be this close together. They are fine really whenever I needed someone to take Kaitlynn, they are more than willing, and fine to have the occassional dinner with but dang living with them is destroying everything. The biggest and only problem is Kaitlynn is my daughter and I say what goes, what is acceptable to be around her, and what discipline and rules are used. I have no where else to go, but I just can't seem to make the best of this place. I cry so often now and it sucks. So here I am writing out any amount of frustration I can but really it wont help much at all. I just want to be on my own again with my family. My husband has been wonderful throughout all of this thankfully!

I am lucky that I have been able to stick with my diet because usually by now I would be knee deep in ice cream, chocolate, anything sweet! So, on that note, so far so good. Right now, other than my wonderful husband and gorgeous daughter, I hate life. But of course that just makes me feel like a terrible wife and mother. Life would be so much easier if we had our own place.


My 60 day Challenge.

So here are my challenges for 60 days, starting this saturday. I am excited to accomplish this. Don't forget if you want too, please join me on your own 30+ day challenge. ☺♥

1.      Current Relationship status, if single discuss being single

2.      15 interesting facts about yourself.

3.      Where would you like to be in 10 years?

4.      Top 5 pet peeves.

5.      Views on religion.

6.      Favorite comfort foods and why?

7.      What is your zodiac sign and do you think it fits you?

8.      Favorite childhood toys.

9.      A photo of something that means the most to you.

10.  Highs and Lows of the last year.

11.  Favorite book.

12.  Something that you miss. Why?

13.  What is your stance on the importance of education?

14.  Favorite tv shows.

15.  How have you changed in the last 2 years?

16.  What is something that you don’t leave the house without?

17.  Favorite movie. Why?

18.  Someone who inspires you and why?

19.  How would you spend a million dollars?

20.  Biggest regret in life. Why do you feel this way?

21.  10 people you want to invite to dinner, dead or alive, and what would you serve?

22.  What are you nicknames? How did you get them?

23.  What is your favorite holiday and why?

24.  Weird things you do when you are alone

25.  A date you would love to go.

26.  Something that never fails to make you feel better.

27.  Talk about your siblings.

28.  Talk about your piercings or tattoos, if you have any.

29.  Favorite color.

30.  Tell us about your hobbies.

31.  Your favorite subject in high school. Why?

32.  A moment you felt most satisfied with your life.

33.  If you could have any job what would it be?

34.  What are your guilty pleasures?

35.  Top 10 favorite songs.

36.  Bullet your whole day.

37.  Some where you would like to move or visit. Why?

38.  What is your earliest memory?

39.  5 things you like about yourself.

40.  If you could go to Target right now and buy 5 things, what would you buy?

41.  What are your favorite quotes?

42.  What are you most grateful for? Why?

43.  What is something you are afraid of?

44.  What is one thing you cannot live without?

45.  You are being given 3 wishes, what are they?

46.  What is one thing you do on a daily basis?

47.  Talk about your children. If you don’t have any, do you want children?

48.  List your biggest fears.

49.  A picture of yourself.

50.  Describe the worst thing to happen to you.

51.  Write a thank you to someone.

52.  What does you ideal life look like?

53.  Favorite thing to do with your family.

54.  Its midnight and your hungry, what are you reaching for?

55.  What is the best thing about Christmas?

56.  Favorite season.

57.  What does your child(ren) do that just makes your whole day?

58.  How are you feeling today?

59.  Look to your immediate left, what is there?

60.  One of your favorite recipes.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

What am I going to do now?

Well, wait for it! I will tell you!

Anyways, I want to blog more. I want to get into blogging and just being able to write more, somehow. So I have decided to do my own version of the 30 day challenges for bloggers.. I have created a list of 60, yes 60, questions.. challenges.

I am going to do a 60 day challenge. I am also going to post my 60 day challenge so that if anyone else would like to use it, they can. My plan is to get it all typed up so that either this Friday or Saturday I can start.

Friday, August 12, 2011

My personal exciting news..

It may not be exciting to many but I now weigh in at 291! I have not weighed that in over 2 years.. When my husband I and started dating I weighed in at 221. I was a size 16/18. I was happy and comfortable in my own skin. By the time our wedding came around in June 2008 (started dating April 2007) I weighed in at a whopping 288. Its sad to go back and look at how fast my weight just flew up. Ugh! Come May 2009, I am pregnant with a son I would lose at 12 weeks and I weighed in at 297. Even more depressing. Ugh! I weighed 294 when I got pregnant with my daughter September 2009. My highest weight during that pregnancy was 326- ridiculous but it was okay at that time because it was for baby. After I gave birth I weighed 313.. June 2010. At the beginning of 2011 I weighed 306 and fluctuated forever between that and about 310.. Since the beginning of the year I have now lost 15 pounds and have 96 more to go. I know I can keep up the good work and get it done but I know that one day at a time is the best way to go.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

I'm a follower... :)

So, I've finally joined MyFitnessPal. I may not have a scale but that doesnt mean I cant track my food and exercies. If I follow the calorie goal it gave me and exercise a minimum of three times a week, I should still lose weight. I hope that I can stick with this and lose the weight I really want too. I would love to lose all 98 pounds I plan to but as long as I fit into a size 14 pants again I dont care. I think my biggest thing is snacking and not exercising like I should. Its hard with Kaitlynn and the current living situation but I should still be okay. I want to do better and be better and lose this damn weight. I know I can do it. I just have to stick to it.

I hope my motivation keeps us this time!


Monday, August 8, 2011

A vent that is much needed for me!

So hubs and I had to take a hit and move in with my parents. We have only been here and week and things are really sucky! I hate being here more than I hate anything else in life. Kaitlynn doesn't listen for crap anymore to me, she listens to her daddy. Her grandparents dont listen to me about the rules I have in place for MY daughter. I cannot wait to get the F outta here. I want my family back. I want my life back. I do all the grocery shopping and at least 85% of the cooking for 8 people. I am told that asking for the courtesy of dont touch my things without telling me is rude and not right. We share a large room with Kaitlynn which really isnt that bad. I would move into a one bedroom if I could find one to allow it! There is only 1 bathroom for 8 people. I just hate it here. I want out but I cant. We have made the tough choice of me not working right now because no one can listen to me when it comes to Kaitlynn. Ugh!

But things are at least going well with hubs like always! He is so wonderful! I couldn't handle this without him!

Anyways, thats all for now!


Thursday, July 21, 2011

More Rambling by Me...

I have been doing really well lately. I have been using our exercise bike almost everyday for 30 min.. on the 5th setting. My goal is to work up to 40 minutes on the 8th setting. I think by the end of summer I might be able to be close to that if not there, at the very latest I will be there by the end of September.

Kaitlynn is pretty crabby these days but I think its cause she is teething and they are molars that are coming in. She is still her smiley, laughing self but when she melts down, its all over from there.

We are working on moving soon.. so we have a lot of stuff to do with that. so not much of an update for now.. I will try to write more soon!

Check back for more.. ! ☺♥

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

I am actually quite proud of myself..

I am finally back under 300 pounds! I am 297 as of today which is 3 pounds to my prepregnancy weight and about 100 pounds from my goal weight. I am very proud of myself for supporting my husband with his diet restrictions and for sticking with my exercising. I do need to work on doing my physical therapy before my physical therapist yells at me for not doing it. And I need to work on my little cheating here and there on my diet! But so far so good.

Kaitlynn is working on tooth number ten. She is getting so big and learning so much everyday! I bought her some new flash cards today. There are colors, numbers, shapes, and a small scavenger hunt game. She sat through most of them and was very interested in what we were doing. I am hoping to be able to do them daily with her and that over the next few months for her to learn her colors and shapes.. numbers I can wait but it would be great for her to learn those too. Later on, I will get some alphabet ones for her and we will add those in too.

Over the next week, I am hoping to add to my poetry blog and write more in this one. I also hope to keep my home clean and organized. My biggest problem is staying on top of the dishes- boy, do I hate dishes! I also need to start getting ready to move at the end of the month.

Well thats all for now! ♥☺

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Ok, so time to update... LOL

Well, it's been awhile since I have updated here. I will have to work on that. :) A lot has gone on since I last updated....

Our beautiful little girl celebrated her 1st birthday! She hated her cupcake, cried and screamed at it and us to get it away. It was so sad but so funny too. I just think she was overwhelmed with how many people were around her. And next year birthday will not be in our tiny apartment, we will take to a park or something.

Hubs and I will be celebrating our birthdays and anniversary very soon. July 9th, I will be 23 and July12th, Hubs will be 24. On July 14th, we will have been married 3 years. Still going strong. We are even talking about adding a second child to our family, if we do, I hope hope hope its a boy.

I have finally started exercising. I just use our exercise bike for 20 min a day when Kaitlynn goes down to a nap. On the weekends, hubs and I have agreed to take walks after dinner both days. Its a start for us. We are also eating much better to fix some health problems that have entered our life. We are working hard to get healthy- as our daughter deserves and so do we. I want to be around to pester my daughter for a long time! :)

Don't forget to check out my poetry blog, that I need to add more too,!

I will update more often, I swear!