My Joys and Struggles

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Sunday, January 1, 2012

Needing a place to talk...

So it's been awhile since I have posted here. Shame on me... I really need to finish my 60 day challenge.

Anyways, I just need someplace to get the feelings out.

I sure hope that 2012 is tons better than 2011... it isn't starting out like that though. Hubs is not working, seasonal job ended, this time I am working though and will be able to handle the bills this month but if we dont want to deplete the little we have in savings we need him to have a job by the end of January. It sucks but life goes on. It sucks not knowing what is going to happen for us.

I am just so ready to be back out on my own with my little family. I am so tired of having to live in my momma's house. It sucks here. I want to be able to cook anything I want, discipline my child how I want, raise my child how I want, to not have my thoughts and feelings criticized. I am tired of feeling depressed. I am exhausted and am really hoping for a miracle or a door to open up and show me what I need to do to get what I want for my family.

Its been over a year now and I am just so tired.

I am also focusing on my weight again. I hope that regular exercise will help me lose weight as well as help me improve my mood and relieve some of the depression. I need to learn to eat a lot better too. My daughter needs me to show her how to eat healthy.