My Joys and Struggles

Monday, September 10, 2012

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Sunday, January 1, 2012

Needing a place to talk...

So it's been awhile since I have posted here. Shame on me... I really need to finish my 60 day challenge.

Anyways, I just need someplace to get the feelings out.

I sure hope that 2012 is tons better than 2011... it isn't starting out like that though. Hubs is not working, seasonal job ended, this time I am working though and will be able to handle the bills this month but if we dont want to deplete the little we have in savings we need him to have a job by the end of January. It sucks but life goes on. It sucks not knowing what is going to happen for us.

I am just so ready to be back out on my own with my little family. I am so tired of having to live in my momma's house. It sucks here. I want to be able to cook anything I want, discipline my child how I want, raise my child how I want, to not have my thoughts and feelings criticized. I am tired of feeling depressed. I am exhausted and am really hoping for a miracle or a door to open up and show me what I need to do to get what I want for my family.

Its been over a year now and I am just so tired.

I am also focusing on my weight again. I hope that regular exercise will help me lose weight as well as help me improve my mood and relieve some of the depression. I need to learn to eat a lot better too. My daughter needs me to show her how to eat healthy.


Friday, September 9, 2011


I am still doing my blog challenge but I am going to be taking a few days off. But I will be back to start up where I left off.


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Day Twelve Blog Challenge

Something that you miss. Why?

I miss having friends and certain family members around. I miss being around/closer to many family members. I have tried to really make friends but nothing ever seems to stick. Its hard being 23, married, and a mother. My responsibilities are to my family first, so yeah. I also dont really like to 'go out' too much. I would be much happier just having friends over for food, drinks, and games/movies/something.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Day Eleven Blog Challenge

Favorite Book.

Love this book. It is a fiction. It has many ups and downs and just a great story line. What I liked about this book was it took off from the very first page. I love when a book can get you right away, so you aren't having to read a chapter or two just ot get into it.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Day Ten Blog Challenge

Highs and Lows of the last year.

A year ago my daughter was just about 3 months old. Shortly after in October I lost my job, it was the perfect job because I was able to keep my daughter with me at all times. My husband changed jobs, then lost the new one, and then got another through a temp agency but of course it was not quite paying enough so now we live with my parents. Its not ideal but those are my lows really..

My highs are mostly the time spent with family and watching my daughter grow into such a beautiful little girl. I am very blessed with the family I have. I love you so much Hubs and Kaitlynn!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Just wanted to add...

In the company my husband and I run, we have started a foods blog. It is up and running and we are working hard to have it filled to the brim with recipes and articles relating to food. Just thought maybe you all might like to check it out.

Any suggestions of things to add to it or recipes you would like to submit for review would be great... if your recipe is picked we would give you credit in the form of your name or website or similar.

submit recipes and suggestions to : rebecca.lea2008 (at) gmail (dot) com

Day Nine Blog Challenge

A photo of something that means the most to you.

My daughter and My husband.

Day Eight Blog Challenge

Favorite Childhood Toys.

The only two I really remember are my Lite Brite and my Barbies.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Day Seven Blog Challenge

What is your zodiac sign and do you think it fits you?

I am a crab. Cancer is my sign.

I definitely think it fits me, pretty much to a 'T'. Its crazy because I have never really believed in astrology but do love learning about it and seeing that maybe I am who my sign says I am.

This website ( here had a great explanation.

Weirdly enough, Gemini, fits my daughter great too.

My husband is a Cancer, and to think that it fits him too, is weird since him and I are pretty much each other's opposite.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Day Six Blog Challenge

Favorite comfort foods.

Ice Cream. Especially Cold Stone.
Cookies. Peanut Butter or White Chocolate Chip Cookies. Homemade.

Shepherds Pie.

Pumpkin Bars.

Do you kind of see my pattern.? My comfort foods are sweets. :)

Day Five Blog Challenge (a day late.. shame on me)

Views on Religion.

I, myself, am christian. I do not claim, at laest try to since I am not a practicing christian, any denomination. I was baptised twice. As a baby I was baptised Catholic and at 4 years old I was baptised Lutheran.

I don't really have a big view on religion. I don't care who you worship, if its one or many. I don't care how you pray or what your rituals are. As long as you are happy and are a good person with good morals that is all that matters. I do however have annoyances with religions, as least with those that I have come into contact with. Here is St. Paul, MN we have missionaries who ride around on their bikes and try to talk to you and give you a bible- they don't however leave you alone when you ask them to. I have had Jehovah's Witnesses knock on my door and I end up having to just shut the door because they do not seem to understand when I am NOT interested. And Catholic, especially orthodox, is too much for me. They just seem to dictate too much for my liking.

Please, do not take any of this the wrong way. I am not trying to generalize, I know not everyone/church practice the same way. My views are solely on those that I have come in contact with. Regardless of my annoyances, I am glad that people have something/one to believe and that they are passionate about it. I think its good for people to have something/one to believe in, whatever that may be.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Day Four Blog Challenge

Top 5 Pet Peeves.

1. People who cannot follow through with what they say they will.

2. People who cannot tell time. It drives me bonkers when people cannot show up on time or know they are going to be late but don't call or text to let you know.

3. People who cannot control they rambunctious, bratty children in public.

4. Bad Drivers!!!

5. Liars. When I ask someone a question I expect an honest answer, even if that is 'I would rather not talk about it/that.'

So these are my pet peeves. I would say the second one I listed is probably my number ONE pet peeve!

Monday, August 29, 2011

Day Three Blog Challenge

Where would you like to be in 10 years?

In 10 years, I will be 33, my husband will be 34, and our daughter will be 11. I hope that we are in our own home, no more renting! I hope to be able to have my husband working from home on our business. I hoep for our business to be very successful. I hope that my daughter is as happy as she is now. I just hope that my family is happy, healthy, and looking forward to each new day ahead of us.

Right now, we have so much going on in life that its really hard to dream about 10 years from now. I want so many things from life that I can't wrap my head around it when it currently feels like its under water.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Day Two Blog Challenge

15 interesting facts about yourself.

1. I married my one and only 5 days after I turned 20 years old.
2. I spend way too much time online, facebook, cafemom, blogger.
3. I don't necessarily like knowing the difference between want and need.
4. I still struggle with wanting to eat my feelings and be knee deep in ice cream.
5. I absolutely love being at home with our daughter and taking of everything here.
6. I feel like I was meant to be married and support my husband and child(ren) to the fullest, even if that means I get left in the dust.
7. I really hate vegetables. I could never be a vegetarian.
8. If I could I would spend all my time buying new clothes and toys for our daughter.
9. I love to write poetry, even though I only sporadically do it these days.
10. I have lists of everything, to do , wants, things to get, groceries, birthdays, etc, etc. I would probably lose my mind without them.
11. I turned 22 about 3 weeks after our daughter was born.
12. I usually say mine or me or my instead of ours or us or we. I mean us/we/ours though. :)
13. I can't stand being dirty or sweaty. If my husband is sweaty or dirty I won't hug him and rarely will I kiss him. I swear I am not a germophobe or anything like that.
14. I like modern style furniture. Straight lines please!
15. I love country music. :)